Hello there.

It happened

 I feared this so much and now its happening.  I wanted you to be out of my life completely so i can forgive you and more importantly, forget you.  I hate how you’re going to be back in my life again, and not as my boyfriend or even just my friend, but as the person I will try my hardest to ignore, not to stare at because even though you have many flaws, we both know you’re gorgeous and it’s hard not to watch you out of the corner of my eye.  But I know I can’t because I’m not just watching you, you’re stealing quick peeks at me too.  Not for the same reason, of course, you’re watching me to make sure I’m not okay, that I still need you.  And you’re watching me to make sure I believe your act, that life is better without me in it.  That’s my cynical analysis of what is happening.  And sadly, that’s the only one I have.